Tuesday, August 20, 2013

What Is Your Story?

What is your story? Can you describe it in words? Now let's narrow that down to six words. Can you rise to the challenge? I can.

My words are:
  • Color
  • Hidden
  • Wonder
  • Lost
  • Rebellion
  • Motion

Those are the words that describe me; they capture my story in consonants and vowels. Color. The most obvious reason for this word is my hair. Once a bright purple, is now a cotton candy pink. I always thought brown and pink went well together. Color is in my day-to-day life. It surrounds me, swirls around like a tornado, constant and fast, but unlike a tornado color doesn't damage. Color simply enlightens.

Hidden. My thoughts. I hide my thoughts about my dad. I miss him so much, but I give off the impression that I am happy, and I accept the fact he should still be alive. When I just want him back.

Wonder. I wonder at the world. This amazing ball of mush, with living beings moving and creating what we now know as the world. I wonder how I will survive when the real world comes. I think this video describes my worries perfectly.

Rhett and Link's Graduation Song
Lost. I don't know what to do. After my father died, I lost my self confidence. I am lost on how to help myself, but I don't know what others can do for me.

Rebellion. Not in the traditional way. I have not rebelled from my mother. I don't drink, or sneak out, or lie. I rebel by going against what the old south has taught me. I highlight my hair with pink/purple not blonde. I wear dark skinny jeans and black shirts; not pastel shirts and white pants. I wear black eyeliner not foundation...gasp! I am not a Southern Belle, and I don't care. I don't go to public school. I am taught by my mum. I don't do loads of homework each night; I am building a house to live in. I am nothing like the rest of my friends.

Motion. Moving forward. Moving backwards. Moving nowhere. Where do I move? Forward is the obvious answer, but moving forward means leaving behind those I love. Moving backwards means I am one step farther from achieving happiness (isn't that what we all want?). Moving nowhere is just as bad. You stay still while those around you continue forward. Which one is the least devastating? I don't know yet, but I think it's a bit above my age. I don't have to know yet, but it always helps to think of  the future.

What is your story? That was mine. A bit sad, but the truth. I don't want to end on a sad note though, so I will leave you with a video that tickles my mum, and one that tickles me as well.

My mum's video
 
My video.
 
 
Where there is tea there is hope
Arthur Wing Pinero 
 


4 comments:

  1. Bravo!!! "Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should." ~From the poem, Desiderata

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  2. Love! Thank you for being Ella's most colorful, wonderful friend:) We miss you!!

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  3. Wow! If only I could have been as wise at your age. And by the way, having pink hair is still fun at 30-something-or-other...hehehe!!!

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  4. Hi Siciliy,

    I came across your La Petite blog and was truly impressed. I think it is quite inspiring to encounter such young women with such spunk to take on such a Herculean task. I was a very fortunate as young woman that I was able to attend an amazing all girls school boarding school who's education and wonderful teachers encouraged me that anything was possible and my future need not be dependent on marrying a man. That was almost 30 years ago and I have been blessed to have traveled all over the world in broadcast television and be able to teach yoga.
    I have embraced minimalism and alternative housing. I lived and sailed on a 40 ft sailboat for a few years and I now live in a 26ft RV in Portland, OR. I plan on building a tiny house as well. I was brainstorming fund raising ideas and perhaps, you might consider putting together a power point presentation regarding tiny homes and your project and presenting it at various schools as an assembly for a small fee. I will be donating $500 to your effort and I would love to see you write more on your tinny home blog. I did not get a "feel" for you until I read Cuppa tea. It is important for readers to identify with you as a person and "feel" who you are. Your creativity and feelings are just as important in that blog and even more so if you are trying to raise funds.

    FYI, my 6 words would be muse, wander, serendipitous, erudite, loquacious, and perfervid. Please feel free to visit my blog as well
    http://wanderingyogamuse.blogspot.com

    Warmest regards for a bright, rewarding, and peaceful future.

    Jennifer

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